Free Fallin'

Since i'm going off to Hungary tomorrow and won't be back till after Christmas, New Year, and results day, I shall post a photo today too since i haven't been posting anything other than drawings which i have been doing in the past.

Reminds me a lot about Left 4 Dead 2. Okay i've never really been a gamer. Like someone in canoeing said today, "I'd never thought of it coming from you (When i said lets go lan and play l4d2)." But its a nice game. releases stress.

Anyway ever felt like you've self destructed before? Well i guess this is one of those times. More accurately, this is the one time it has ever happened and got me really bad.

Okay forget this whole paragraph which i typed and deleted.

I'm indecisive, that's all. I hope this holiday/training camp in Hungary solves something. If i die in the mountains or something, at least solve something before that.


Screw that

Anyway be right back guys. In a month. I can honestly say i would regret not going for results day after much deliberation. Its one of those moments you get once in a lifetime. Alright i'm a little cranky today i admit. Not the best time to type anything. Merry Christmas, happy holidays, happy new year and all the best for IB results day people. It's early and i may blog in Hungary, but what the heck.

Heh.

I hope something goes right before the new year.

Anyway something from 2007:

Questions With No Answers

I Hear The Jingle Of Bells In The Near Future, I Think

I just realised today, that it has been 3 years or so since my family last set up a Christmas tree. Its kinda funny how it didn't struck me till yesterday that we kinda lack the Christmas spirit at home. We haven't really got any decorations put up, let alone minor little things like the stocking or the Christmas angel hanging around in the house. Its kinda strange how the house seems so bare of any festive mood as compared to my friend's house, where there are Christmas decorations hanging from every end of the house.

We need a major makeover.

Actually its the kind of expected outcome i guess, considering how we hardly ever get Christmas presents for each other ( D: Yes terrible D:) and as a kid, Christmas equates to asking your parents to get a certain something you want, instead of the actual hinting of what you want and hoping your parents would guess and get you just that. Honestly, I like that randomness alot more, as compared to having a list of wants which you would be pretty certain of getting. Come to think of it, I really don't know what i want for Christmas this time round. Okay maybe i do, but its a little more of the intangible sort of thing. On the side note, I need a new sketchbook, preferably something with more drawing space and can handle watercolour. So come on mom and dad, if you have found out about this blog through sis or stalking me on facebook, get your kids something different! Something pretty much out of the blue. Not something we tell you we want, but rather something you think we want, or guess we want. It makes giving alot more fun and alot more exciting.

I don't really like knowing that i've gotten what i ask for sometimes, because for the past few years, i realised that it doesn't seem so special anymore.

Which is also why i love handmade stuff, even if its a little note or drawing of sorts. Its the sort of thing that can't really be reproduced or easily found, because something handmade takes more than just a couple of minutes to decide. It's not like you can easily pick it off the shelves or something, and considering time is limited, handmade stuff sure is a lot more special somehow. Same for surprises. I actually keep those receipts and candles from birthday lunches or dinners. Heh.

So maybe this time round i shall start by getting my family a late Christmas present from Hungary (Since i won't be around till 12th Jan. I'll be missing the IB results. After much thinking, that sucks. I prefer facing my fears sometimes.). Maybe start getting for others too. I guess it has to start somewhere eh?

Anyway, today i found another random drawing while clearing the mess of a shelf i have above my laptop. Some sketch i did during a Chinese B exam. Funny things.

Float Like A Cannonball

The post about it is on Tumblr, link in orange above!

Blood And Sweat

Black & White

Bugger, my knee injury is back. And i think i lost my specs. Haha this sucks.

(Anyway, why is it so hard to put a tag cloud in Tumblr?)

Hungary in a few days! Need to buy your winter wear so you won't freeze in the mountains! And driving! And library books! Pffttt, things need to be done Brian!

Bloop Bloop Bloop

Fish Bag

Some paper bag i decorated for angel and mortal during church camp. 
Lately time has been passing really fast. Eh. 

I Can Haz Physicz

Today, while jumping down the stairs, dad told me that i shouldn't coz the weight on the stairs could be up to 10 times more. Immediately i said to myself, F = ma; W = mg

Haha. Good times. Funny how you miss hell when its gone.

Something's Better, On The Other Side

BACK FROM CHURCH CAMP!

Anyway camp was pretty good. All about community and support for one another. We had really few J2s about, so they mixed us all up with the p6s to J1s and grouped us together. Turned out I got a really quiet group, but in the end it worked out pretty fine! Especially for the activities like the all-about-the-place-race (Sorry can't really remember the name of the funny race. Jumban-something. Heh). We ditched a majority of the games station to get position points and it paid off i guess! We got 3rd, which was really unexpected but the best part was we finally got to open up and communicate really well. First time i had to lead a group all the way too. Not too bad, but I could probably try to open my mouth a bit more or something. Haha. Too quiet sometimes i swear. Too quiet Brian, too quiet.

I need guts to do crazy stuff, but then again. Dilemma. (Anyway, if we get to plan a church camp next year, can i design the shirt? :D)

 Lately haven't been taking many photographs, sigh. But nevermind! I shall try to make it up with more drawings and stuff! Got alot of things to think about too. Like whether i should keep canoeing during NS. After NS. Part time job (Priorities really makes things difficult sometimes. Haha). Then there's still getting my ass down to Ubi to sign up for driving. And making sure i got the stuff i need for the trip to Hungary. And as always, there's life. And love and why.

Switchfoot. Nevermind, random stuff like this enters my mind sometimes.

Back to html! Need to renew library book soon though.

Anyway;

Arrows & Flowers

(I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle, la la la-la-la, la la, la-la-la, lala lala la.)

I wanna play l4d2.

Church Camp Tomorrow! Be RIght Back To Post More Soon!

DRAWINGS!

Topsy Turvy

Ah damn tiring day. Must have really drained myself out during training. Or maybe its just all in the head. Currently, the free time after the end of school haven't been too memorable, its mostly finding stuff to do to keep myself entertained. But even then, after a while it gets really really repetitive.

Can't wait for church camp and Hungary though. hopefully it would free things up a bit more. Sorry if i have been rather moody in some ways lately, kinda thinking about alot of things since there's no more IB and school work to distract myself.

Things to do this holidays with your free time. I just realised, it isn't really a holiday since we're kinda out of school. Its like limbo between school and real life. Like at the gates of Eden and the world out there, except Eden is school and while walking out, this one has this huge billboard sign with bright spotlights illuminating it saying "Welcome to the Real World"

"She said to me, condescendingly, take a seat, take your life, plot it out in black and white"

You know, i think i can get an inkling of what Adam and Eve felt like while they were being barred from Eden, except this one doesn't involve pissing off God or introducing all the burdens of mankind. Yeah, not that big an issue, other than the environment change and the real issue of cash and figuring out what you want to do next time. Suddenly, IB results seem to add to the anxieties; so much for worry on the day itself.

Anyway. Things to do (My digression is strange):

1. Learn figure drawing
2. Take more photographs. (Actually will get a chance in Hungary. Or maybe i should take a walk along the highway again.)
3. Learn programming (HTML, CSS, C++, Phython, etc; Hell I don't know where to start so picking up a how-to book which shouts out "FOR NOOBS!" shall make my decision. HTML, XHTML and CSS it is then)
4. Draw more (Yeah, its a different idea from figure drawing)
5. Level up guitar skills
6. Driving, Brian, driving (Get your ass to the nearest driving center to the house)
   
7. Get a part time job for January till enlistment. Or internship.
   

Any recommendations for No. 6 is good info; suggestions or links?

Other than that; on the other blog:

Ice

I think the notebook scans are more interesting. Gonna switch back to that soon, after i clear up all the lost drawings of yesteryear's.