Don't Blink, Don't Miss A Thing (Yes, A Repeated Title, No A Different Picture, Maybe A Different Meaning)

Explanation of Don't Blink, Don't Miss A Thing:

(Oops. Apparently the internet was cut off on Sunday so nothing could be posted and i was out the whole of yesterday. Hah)

I got this idea from a picture which i took in the car using my handphone. It was a shot of the side view mirror as the car was speeding down the road. It is interesting how the surroundings would be blurred out and the image in the mirror would still be clear and still. Somehow is reminds me of how we tend to go so fast in life, aiming for the quickest possible way, the most convenient yet effective and the most efficient, without stopping for a break. As such we rush through everything we do, with our eyes focused on that goal and our bodies rushing against time. Tunnel vision doesn't help. In the end we miss out everything around us for that certain goal and in a way achieving this sort of goals become more of a mundane task rather than an adventure, and in the end we miss out on so many things along the way. The surroundings in this painting (in this case, picture) represent the things around us in a blur because of our constant aim for efficiency and just taking on whatever comes our way with whatever we have without a break. It reflects our culture of going instant (e.g instant food, instant downloads, faster connection speeds etc.) and missing out on many things along the way (e.g experiences with someone, time with your family, enjoying God's creation around you, moments that take your breath away etc.) And then when we look back at those experiences, we realise that it is like looking back at the image in the side view mirror; once it has passed you, it gets harder and harder to appreciate it like how we did the first time as it fades away further, becomes smaller, before ending as a tiny speck in the mirror. And as we dwell on that fact, we miss out the other new things that come our way too. Sometimes, it's best that we hit the brakes and slow down our pace, for life doesn't give us pause buttons or rewinds, and neither does it stop. So it's best sometimes we slow down and stop to smell the roses (take pictures of it, pluck some to give someone or make pressed flowers, eat them, oh, whatever makes you sleep tonight, up to you) and take our goals and aims as what it should be, an adventure not a monotonous job.

I think this summary is better the one in my art book. Lol.

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Monday, June 30, 2008

Training (i love training alone on still water in the morning) then went out with canoeing people on monday to watch Don't Mess With The Zohan (it sure does mess up your mind ><), then off with sloo and lloyd to get chips and dips for the party (not bad eh, $1.80 quick sale chips were quite good!), then walked to foo's condo which was deep in the guts of sunset way. I'm quite sure those two got the exercise they needed for the week. Quite a good party with all the junk food and drinks. Melted ice cream. Lol. And marissa had loads of fun with my cam, evident from the spam shots and blackmail worthy photos. Awesome. Hah. And lloyd was. Nevermind. Oh, still feels like holidays even though its school term. Bad. So i wonder about hidden things.

A Certain Serenity

My I-Did List today:

A Java Chip from Starbucks
Wake up after
A long walk home
a long time
A lot of thought for the distance covered
Contemplation and
Enjoyed the sun, and the shower after
the aftermaths
Messed around at home
Let loose
Guitar
a thought
Walk at night
(a little too late)
More thoughts
or two
Concluded;
Yeap.
Pretty fine for after exams
It took a while though.
I need to start taking more photos and a lot more sleep.

I was never good with words.

I Should Have Given You A Reason To Stay

Car accidents never killed anyone. Its the impact that did.

Nice, exams are finally over. Maths was disgusting. I'm quite guaranteed a fail already, sadly. At least i didn't die as badly as i thought. Lol.

Right I got my Death Cab For Cutie tickets today! Ohwell didn't get the balcony seat but, center front row of 3rd level is still quite good. (Sorry Dan, Death Cab owns Singfest anytime)

Congrats, you've found a hidden message! Awesome

Exams never harmed anyone. Its the results day that gives most of the mental stress.

And when I see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around
Turns you around

If you feel discouraged
When there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seams
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's A to Z

This is fact, not fiction
For the first time in years
All the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03
And on your machine, I slur a plea
For you to come home
But I know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay

This is fact, not fiction
For the first time in years...

A Lack Of Color, Death Cab For Cutie

P.S Thank God for helping me in exams. Thanks for reminding me Wayne.

Puddleshore

We need a different perspective,

At times a logical mind,

Some time to ponder thoughts,

A button. (perhaps, rewind?)

Laugh tracks to play

When there's nothing funny at all

A couple of days,

And maybe the sea won't seem so small.

Lol. Random. Not

(YES/OH SHIT) MATHS LEFT! I don't know whether to feel relief or panic.

Haha.

To Bend And Not Break

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
if i dont pray.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
does it mean that i wont do well?

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
nope but it means that you wont have the assurance that God is watching for you

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
true

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
why?

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
just curious.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
i'm gonna pray.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
no worries.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
it's just that.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
that just struck me

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
oh

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
like people use God as a last minute help

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
when you're not supposed to do ti that way

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
it's like a kiddy kind of question.

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
so if i pray now also no use la?

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
but its a good one

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
not that

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
as in

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
some people just pray for the sake of praying before exams in hope that God will help them immediately

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
God will help luh

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
but it defeats the purpose

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
of?

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
it becomes mroe of a one sided relationship

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
like God is your wish machine kind of thing

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
that's true.

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
i think the best ones are those who before exam say a short prayer for themselves but still ahve ttime to pray for others

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
and not worry in the end

Brian.K - I took to a lie, I told to myself says:
ultimate confidence in God

♥leemin.[lonedrops] isolation PRIMERS FOR LIFE says:
okok. go study.

For a split second I realised,
Technically, its easy.
Practically, sadly, it can be hard.
Easier said than done. We tend to trust ourselves too much sometimes.

So, Did Curiosity Kill You Mr Cat?

Yes its, 1:19 A.M.

And no, I'm not tired.

(Oh i remembered. I called this a ginger cat. Wrong. Yeah i think its a calico. Probably. Credit to Celeste for that. I still think calico is more fitting for crackers)

I sense a week of disappointment ahead. Either that or just a week where time passes really slow (Or fast, depending on which point of view you'd like to see exams as) No i fear not stress, nor do i fail failure, rather i fear disappointment.

Stress is daily. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and if it does, you'll be too dead to bother.

Failure is fine if i know i mugged my @$ off but i didn't the target. Hey satisfaction. Happy death. Lol.

But disappointment. That's looking back and saying, 'damn hell i could have done better if i only *fill in the blanks*' Nope I'm sure we all don't like looking back and realizing we could have done better with all the 'If-only' and 'I-should-have' questions bouncing about in our heads. Hah. Too late, too late.

Yup, sucks like hell.

I hope i do good with no regrets.

By the way, curiosity did kill the cat.

Its 1:45 A.M, sleepless

Slipped From My Eye

All right in front of your eyes,
If you had only paused for a moment to look.

Oh damn 4 days. And i don't think i'm confident for my maths physics or maths. oh wait. econs. (crap maths stress)

(I swear i give myself random adrenaline rushes just from thinking of the exams. Freaks me out.)

Maths above 60, i shall keep HL. Below 60, i'm taking SL. Eh crap, but i don't wanna take HL english! What a pain. (Panic attacks. Wth. And i hardly get them in competitions.)
I got a feeling i can never convince myself to drop HL maths.

Anyway, erm, sorry guys i totally forgot about the study session in school. Apparently i have started counting my days in numbers (instead of the usual monday, tuesday, wednesday thing or using dates) like some doomsday clock.

Currently todays date is 4. And no it doesn't increase. Have a nice day!

(Oh f...reak)

Roving Mechanical Eye

'I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh, what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you'
- Marching Bands Of Manhattan, Death Cab For Cutie

Overcast, With A Little Bit of Rain

I looked up,
And shot a piece of sky,
Which reflected the very emotions,
I was feeling at that time.

I bought an electric guitar yesterday! And my dad went crazy and bought drums even though none of us knows how to play it. Lol

right, back to work.

'What holidays?'

(yes i finally installed a cbox, finally after a long time of procrastination and for the sake of convenience too. Yeah its fatter than normal because in its normal dimensions it looks like crap next to the big fat profile box. Haha. Happy spamming! :D)

Anyway time trial today, at a disgusting time of 2 p.m, the period of time where my lunch is still digesting, and yes, a time trial where we sprint out guts out and hopefully the food doesn't come out too. Weather, hell-like, except with the presence of water and greenery, with a weirdass side wind. Anyway it turned out quite well. I think. 1000m timing was of no importance to keep in my head and 500 timing was...good.

I need to draw more. My creative bits in my head are melting down. ><

A funny joke i came across:

In the beginning was the Plan.



And then came the Assumptions.



And darkness was upon the face of the Workers.



And they spoke among themselves, saying, "It is a crock of shit, and it stinketh."



And the workers went unto their Supervisors and said, "It is a pail of dung, and none may abide the odour thereof."



And the Supervisors went unto their Managers, saying, "It is a container of excrement, and it is very strong, such that none may abide by it."



And the Managers went unto their Directors, saying, "It is a vessel of fertiliser, and none may abide it's strength."



And the Directors then went onto the Vice Presidents, saying unto them, "It promotes growth and is very powerful."



And the Vice Presidents went unto the President, saying unto him, "This new plan will actively promote the growth and vigour of the company; with powerful effects."



And the President looked upon the Plan, and saw that it was good.



And the Plan became Policy.



This is How Shit Happens.

Haha, damn funny.

Finally the pace of training has slowed down to a super slack 8km paddle today, leaving us enough energy to resort to a little bit of wasp-nest bashing (nonchalantly: 'when the wasp comes back it will be damn pissed lor') during weight training using protein bottles, a hand file and a dustpan, and a huge fuss involving a squashed bee and whether the whole hive would come and attack us, resulting in random screams and shouts of 'bee!' or 'wasp!'. And a 'protein shake' of wasp nest (cookies and cream (the nest) with tropical sunrise (the grubs)). At least no one accidentally drank it. It smelt like crap.

'I'm a 'professional' pest buster'. Hah, nice

We should do this more often. Haha.

Slow beginnings have such quick endings

Don't Blink, Don't Miss a Thing

time flies and
tomorrow feels like a second away
and yesterdays felt like they never came

Next time I won’t blink, so I won’t regret

12 days more.

(curse and swear)

Today: Maths on repeat.
not drunk, just high. high enough to hurt when you fall. and its a straight line down.
This is gonna be one hell of a holiday and i really hope it pays off

(Oh and your attention span, Brian)

Right.
i got some things to figure out myself