What's The Rush?

I realised i haven't ever really blogged about daily life before. It seems pretty strange to talk about the day. Like there are just so many things to talk about everyday, i don't really know where to start.

Its been 12 days since i've turned 18. Probably has to be the worst birthday ever yet. Okay thats overrated. Thanks for all those wallposts on facebook and those smses. Made me smile for real for the first time in weeks, honestly :). Just a bit of things that has been haunting me lately.

And so i'm typing this on bus number 14 on the way to tuition. Gotta remember when to drop though. Not really familiar with the route. Anyway, i changed my mind. Maybe blogging for particular events in the week seems like better material. I don't think anyone wants to know i went to daniel's church today (BRMC by the way) X) kidding daniel, don't cry!

Ever since Event of Great Distress took place, things have been pretty strange. Made new friends, step back and seen where i stand, started listening to music on the go again, started playing my guitar again. Yada yada. And strange messages pop up regarding my sitiation everyday in the most unexpected ways, almost like God sending advice from heaven down to earth:

'Brian, life goes on, this is a lesson learnt, the next time, you'll know what to do right and do it better'

so i did stray, i did go too fast, now i know. Learn Brian, learn.

And be better. So right now, i have no idea where on earth i'm at now.. I hope i didn't miss my stop. I'm gonna be late for tuition if i do.

On the first week of Event of Great Distress occuring,

hold on, lemme check with the bus driver where i am. I don't recognise this place.

Okay 4 stops.

Anyway i met Small Fry. Small Fry is highly experienced about the Event of Great Distress. Been there, done that. I think Small Fry probably had it worse off than me. Small Fry says it takes time to get over it, but don't take too long coz you're never gonna get anywhere if you take too long. Sounds very extreme though. Besides i know i'm not the only one experiencing Great Distress coz Small Fry has her own kind of distress; we're on the same sinking boat. Well another sort which i can't say. I don't really fancy death by eyedrops.

Welcome to my boat, its already sunken actually, if you don't mind. Once in a while there's a little difficulty breathing but once you get over it, its pretty nice here.

Tuition now

tuition done.

'Shit happens like how bunnies multiply'

And of course one of the first people i turned to was the wise lolcat. Okay to a certain extent. Because i know her idea of flinging isn't what i'd like to do. I'm not that sort. lolcat says i need to forget if its really not working because it isn't gonna do me any good waiting for something that won't happen before ending off with a comforting pat pat and then harassing the Boy Who Has Never Tasted Mangoes.

Lately things have been pretty surreal. Its like normal life except it kinda feels like something is strangely odd. Its like falling asleep on a january night and waking up realising that, woah, its may. Or walking past something that gives a strange 3rd person flashback; suddenly you're watching yourself and what you did and going,

damn, why didn't i do that then?

Sadly you can't turn back time. You can forgive but you can't forget, and that's true. But when you forgive you don't bring up what you can't forget again. You lock it up and keep it at the back of your mind and remember it so you can take revenge when you need to! Kidding. You learn from it. Like how you learn from mistakes.

So anyway, daily life is pretty much the same. Something new needs to come along soon. I shall get drunk on art maths and physics because if i'm gonna give myself a headache, i'd better be helping me. Need to forget too.

I realized this doesn’t make sense. Unfiltered random thoughts of Brian.

Okay I lied. I rather not forget and have things work out if they can.

Halloween felt like yesterday