Green And White

The 100th post!

Originally, I wanted my 100th post was supposed to be about something else (Oh you'll know, when you read the next, well, deep post.) But after Teacher's Day today, i changed my mind.

I left SJI in sec 1, after national day, and on my last day of school there, I wasn't supposed to be there coz i was technically an acsian already and apparently there was a holiday because the ruggers won some championship but I don't really give a damn about that right now.

And yes, today I decided to skip the Teacher's Day concert in ACS(I) coz I felt that I should go back to SJI. I trust my gut feeling alot.

I know, its only about 8 months there, but truth be told, the attachment there beats being in ACS(I) for the remaining few years of secondary school, and currently, the slowly disappearing IB years we have now. Its true. My words are like reality, right in your face. My point is, I miss SJI, even after so long, even though its so short.

Some things you don't really know till its too late.

Its really nostalgic going back to SJI. Somehow I wasn't really bothered by the fact that I stuck out like a sore thumb in SJI due to the ACS uniform. Instead I was rather excited by the fact I was going back, like a rush of blood somehow. Alot have changed since the last time I went there (which was sec 4 by the way. I have no idea why i have to type this today, its 3 a.m soon. I trust my gut feeling i guess.), the art room became a chem room, (and for a moment i thought my memory was major fail coz i swear the art room was in front of the parade ground. Turns out that they shifted it to the back of the school into porta-cabins or something.) the classrooms were cycled from their usual position 2 years ago, and there are fancy lockers now (back then we had to keep our stuff in boxes under our chairs or below the shutter windows. Ah the old days.)

If there's one thing that keeps me going back there to SJI, its probably because i still love that place.

Now don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say that ACS(I) is terrible or anything. Well, they do provide an awesome education here, its probably more balanced out than SJI in certain ways. The sports here is awesome too. And other than that the facilities in ACS(I) owns SJI's ones hands down.

But sorry guys, nothing can beat the family like atmosphere back in SJI. Where your old canoeing teacher in charge treats you like a good buddy, the head of the sec 1 level during the year you left remembers you even after so long, and some member of the senior administration invites you into his office in such a down to earth manner, and no formalities needed, tells you that he's impressed that you still come back even after so many years, even though you've only been here for 8 months.

And I say: "I miss the school, I miss how its like down here."

Its true. The whole school is warm and welcoming, (even for a traitor like me. Heh). A lot of the things i love to do started from there, (Canoeing, Art; hell if i started in ACS(I) i probably would be a typical swimmer/polo player, and man do i have alot to miss out not picking up canoeing). Its nice how your teachers there are more like good friends than teachers, and how everyone seems to know everyone, even if you're from a different class (Maybe that's coz a majority came from St Michael's but still, it seems easier making friends there. Sorry, i still don't know who's that guy from 6.5. Have I even seen him before?) I'm not saying i don't have great friends in ACS(I), I have many (Hi Daniel! Hi Elliott! And Others!). Its just that it seems easier to draw closer to those in SJI. SJI helped build my character too. ACS(I) may have added on to it, but it can't change it. I had my first date there too, but I'm going off tangent now.

The atmosphere says alot too. No students are allowed in the staff room, but on Teacher's Day, everyone just rushes in to distribute their gifts or sing songs for the teacher anyway, and the teachers don't really care; for that day, rules, heck. Its cool like that. And when you walk down the corridors, you hear loud cheering from the classes for their teachers, more mass singing, loads of laughter from both student and teacher. I know it made me smile.

Its alot different there. If you get what I mean.

There's no odd invisible barrier separating people, no intimidation in any way, no extravagance needed. Just plain o' bonding.

(Other than that, any ACS secondary Art students? Please improve your art, and explore something other than chess pieces, plants, girls and the school ground. I swear, SJI's art is pretty darn good. I say even i feel like my pieces lack the creativity compared to theirs. Its kinda embarrassing but inspiring at the same time.)

Anyway, its pretty late, I'll add in second thoughts tomorrow. If i have any. Need to sleep. Long day tomorrow.

To be really honest, sorry guys, it will take more than time and glory to make me feel attached to where I am now. Some things can't be gained merely through that; I actually enjoy myself here, but sometimes it more than that. Its like how a man may be poor and lacking, but if he's happy, he's way wealthier than a rich man who is unhappy. I may be red, blue and gold on the outside; cut me, and maybe i'm bleeding red, blue and gold too.

But sorry guys, deep inside, I'm still green and white. Some things just can't change.

Some things you can't see,
Until it gets too late.